Wednesday, April 21, 2004
*My head is going to explode*
I've got so much on my mind lately, nevermind just exams...
It's so hard to concentrate.
Why does being honest cause so much suffering--you'd thinking that not being a liar would be a good thing. That it would clear my head. I probably won't sleep more so than I did the other day.
I lost out on something that could have been great, I screwed with it-the little card tower I knocked over. I needed to do it though, I wasn't happy with it and yet I was, now I am happy about it and yet I am not...at all.
This past week has been the most bizzare of all weeks of my entire life. Monday was one of the best days of my life, and yet, it feels like...a dream. Like a dream that won't re-occur again. :(
I feel so weird.
and rather sad.
Sometimes I wish I could read thoughts.
Hebrew exam is over...yay....I think I did okay on it. I'm *f-ing* pissed about ANT100 and the test 2 answers. All I can say is that I am going to be studying non-stop for the exam. I have a week to cram every tid bit of info into my head. It just mostly makes me mad because I have done harder courses in the sort of same subject area with way better marks.
My new job is not as exciting as I am sure everyone expected, but it was a job nonetheless, a foot in the door, and pretty convenient. I am just working on the bibliography for the professor's new text book. And I get to work at home :)
Right now I am wired on too much tea and cookies. I never eat that much junk food-EVER.
Oh well. They are the fancy ones ...in a box...you know?...ugh.
anyway...I basically now ride the boat along the water and just let it take me to wherever. Stuff keeps happening to me, I don't know why I am so interesting, I don't know where I am going or what tomorrow entails. I am just along for the ride now. My days just aren't as plain and predictable anymore.
Maybe I will go home soon.
I've got so much on my mind lately, nevermind just exams...
It's so hard to concentrate.
Why does being honest cause so much suffering--you'd thinking that not being a liar would be a good thing. That it would clear my head. I probably won't sleep more so than I did the other day.
I lost out on something that could have been great, I screwed with it-the little card tower I knocked over. I needed to do it though, I wasn't happy with it and yet I was, now I am happy about it and yet I am not...at all.
This past week has been the most bizzare of all weeks of my entire life. Monday was one of the best days of my life, and yet, it feels like...a dream. Like a dream that won't re-occur again. :(
I feel so weird.
and rather sad.
Sometimes I wish I could read thoughts.
Hebrew exam is over...yay....I think I did okay on it. I'm *f-ing* pissed about ANT100 and the test 2 answers. All I can say is that I am going to be studying non-stop for the exam. I have a week to cram every tid bit of info into my head. It just mostly makes me mad because I have done harder courses in the sort of same subject area with way better marks.
My new job is not as exciting as I am sure everyone expected, but it was a job nonetheless, a foot in the door, and pretty convenient. I am just working on the bibliography for the professor's new text book. And I get to work at home :)
Right now I am wired on too much tea and cookies. I never eat that much junk food-EVER.
Oh well. They are the fancy ones ...in a box...you know?...ugh.
anyway...I basically now ride the boat along the water and just let it take me to wherever. Stuff keeps happening to me, I don't know why I am so interesting, I don't know where I am going or what tomorrow entails. I am just along for the ride now. My days just aren't as plain and predictable anymore.
Maybe I will go home soon.
