Thursday, July 15, 2004
Bah.
So I still don't even know what is going on with this stupid Bayfest thing that all of my friends invited me out to. Did someone forget that I don't drive?! And that I live in the middle of no where!! bah!! Why couldn't we all live downtown Toronto where the TTC saves my drunken ass EVERYTIME. Meh.
Thus, therefore, and, I decided to go with the 2nd invitation-which is to see a movie with my 2 old friends, Colleen and Geoff. Who go back since elementary school. Well...if they come online cuz err....i forgot their phone numbers. ....*snickers* what kind of a friend am I, eh?? Well I can't remember anything, back off man! Ah well. Looks like a cup of tea and my textbook night again. Not that I'm complaining really. It would be nice to see my friends again for sure. But..I dunno, I'm pretty neutral either way because I am pretty tired from going out every single fricking day back in TO for weeks on end. So the break is kind of nice. But still, hopefully that movie thing will work out tonight. Fareinheit 9/11 or whatsitcalled.
I gotta call my nana too...
anyway,
So I broke up with HWMNBN last night. Shocking isn't it--only because I haven't been letting on about what's been going through that head of mine over the past while. For obvious reasons really. But now I can tell you. It just wasn't right. I was thrilled for the second chance of dating him and I did really like him--he is a great guy. But, the more time we spent together, the more I started to realize that despite everything awesome about him, it just didn't feel right. It's hard to explain. It's like...like it would never feel like that sort of relationship. It just wasn't there for me. It was probably similar to what I was feeling before but more clear and more full blown now. I didn't rush out of the relationship those past few weeks ago because that was mostly fear of a new relationship. This is how I feel about the relationship and what it was going to be. I kept going to make sure and give it a chance and not make a rash decision. But I wasn't feeling this way for no reason. There was a reason for it. And I can't lie to myself. And in an interesting turn of events, he basically felt the same way--about the idea of breaking up being good. How about that! And here I was panicking for nawt *evil eye*
So basically, in conclusion, we have to be good buds because he is wicked fun and I am just glad that things ended on the right foot...er..feet...whatever!
And so now, I AM SINGLE AGAIN, WAHOOO!!
Oh and I got a job interview at Sugar Mountain!!! It's on Saturday afternoon so now i have to take the train on Saturday morning instead of my parents driving me back on Sunday--unless they call back and say that they can take me on Monday or something. but the guy didn't rightly know if they were doing interviews on any other day.
So I am going because I have been so desperate with finding another job! As you all know! my money woes!!
MONEY MONEY MONEY GIVE TO MEE!!
Got my lenses to my glasses replaced this morning--I was rudely awaken at 9:30am for it.. which..was good...cuz I was actually trying to get up at 7:30am..but..of course..I ended up staying up super late again! doh!
I think that is about it..oh, I went for a quickie run in the park. Wow, honestly, it is a lot harder to run on grass than on pavement, i'll tell ya. I could only last for like 15 minutes! I had to power walk for the rest of my laps. It was bloody tiring. I still haven't practiced soccer yet..damn my brother. I just don't want to go out in the daytime and feel ridiculous kicking the ball around like git. That's why I am trying to get up at 7:30.....NOBODY WILL SEE ME BWAHAHAH.....okay I'm sane.
errr...that's about it for news, me thinks.
ps. Tobey Maguire is hot
Cheers
So I still don't even know what is going on with this stupid Bayfest thing that all of my friends invited me out to. Did someone forget that I don't drive?! And that I live in the middle of no where!! bah!! Why couldn't we all live downtown Toronto where the TTC saves my drunken ass EVERYTIME. Meh.
Thus, therefore, and, I decided to go with the 2nd invitation-which is to see a movie with my 2 old friends, Colleen and Geoff. Who go back since elementary school. Well...if they come online cuz err....i forgot their phone numbers. ....*snickers* what kind of a friend am I, eh?? Well I can't remember anything, back off man! Ah well. Looks like a cup of tea and my textbook night again. Not that I'm complaining really. It would be nice to see my friends again for sure. But..I dunno, I'm pretty neutral either way because I am pretty tired from going out every single fricking day back in TO for weeks on end. So the break is kind of nice. But still, hopefully that movie thing will work out tonight. Fareinheit 9/11 or whatsitcalled.
I gotta call my nana too...
anyway,
So I broke up with HWMNBN last night. Shocking isn't it--only because I haven't been letting on about what's been going through that head of mine over the past while. For obvious reasons really. But now I can tell you. It just wasn't right. I was thrilled for the second chance of dating him and I did really like him--he is a great guy. But, the more time we spent together, the more I started to realize that despite everything awesome about him, it just didn't feel right. It's hard to explain. It's like...like it would never feel like that sort of relationship. It just wasn't there for me. It was probably similar to what I was feeling before but more clear and more full blown now. I didn't rush out of the relationship those past few weeks ago because that was mostly fear of a new relationship. This is how I feel about the relationship and what it was going to be. I kept going to make sure and give it a chance and not make a rash decision. But I wasn't feeling this way for no reason. There was a reason for it. And I can't lie to myself. And in an interesting turn of events, he basically felt the same way--about the idea of breaking up being good. How about that! And here I was panicking for nawt *evil eye*
So basically, in conclusion, we have to be good buds because he is wicked fun and I am just glad that things ended on the right foot...er..feet...whatever!
And so now, I AM SINGLE AGAIN, WAHOOO!!
Oh and I got a job interview at Sugar Mountain!!! It's on Saturday afternoon so now i have to take the train on Saturday morning instead of my parents driving me back on Sunday--unless they call back and say that they can take me on Monday or something. but the guy didn't rightly know if they were doing interviews on any other day.
So I am going because I have been so desperate with finding another job! As you all know! my money woes!!
MONEY MONEY MONEY GIVE TO MEE!!
Got my lenses to my glasses replaced this morning--I was rudely awaken at 9:30am for it.. which..was good...cuz I was actually trying to get up at 7:30am..but..of course..I ended up staying up super late again! doh!
I think that is about it..oh, I went for a quickie run in the park. Wow, honestly, it is a lot harder to run on grass than on pavement, i'll tell ya. I could only last for like 15 minutes! I had to power walk for the rest of my laps. It was bloody tiring. I still haven't practiced soccer yet..damn my brother. I just don't want to go out in the daytime and feel ridiculous kicking the ball around like git. That's why I am trying to get up at 7:30.....NOBODY WILL SEE ME BWAHAHAH.....okay I'm sane.
errr...that's about it for news, me thinks.
ps. Tobey Maguire is hot
Cheers
