Saturday, July 10, 2004
Grrrr
It's almost 9:30pm and I shouldn't be at home. I was supposed to be at some fancy jazz club watching my 2nd cousin and his wife perform with my sister and her friends. I won't lie, I forgot about this until late last night! I have *nothing* to wear for this level of dress, at all. I did have a few dresses but they needed a certain type of bra that I didn't have! I had to buy it! So the next day I have tons of errends and groceries to do and we go out to do that and I try and look for either a new outfit or this piece of unders that I need! nothing! It's like they cleared out the WInners in the small section knowing that I was coming! So we rush back home and I'm already so tired. What happens next?? The streetcars weren't running or something on the harbourfront!! We had like an hour wait in union subway at the connecting streetcar thing!! ahgh! The time I get home it is basically 7pm and I am supposed to be there for 7:45pm. I look around my drawers. I don't have anything to wear! I don't have enough time to go to Sears where I knew I could get what I needed. And to top it off, I didn't really want to go anyway. Just wasn't really interested. I could have just visited ...in not-so-nice-clothes...but then I would have had to pay 12.00 just to say hello for an hour. That just doesn't compute in my head.
Anyway..arhg..so I just took the dog for a walk with Rob and came back in and did a quick 15 minute workout and had a shower. I feel chubby in the stomach for some reason?!?! ahrtgh. Anyway...so I'm all flustered. I just hope everyone gets over it. I didn't feel like pulling my hair out more over it and it was just easier for me to not go. I think now I am going to read my school stuff...I applied for a few jobs today...gonna work more on that..I need a job whyyy haven't I gotten 1 interview yet this summer. I might go out tonight, at like 10pm. Maybe. I can dress to hang out...I don't have clothes for a fancy jazz club ahrhg. Oh and I've stopped spending my money. wahoo! I've had my fun for the summer but it's time to return to frugalness...until I score a job, that is. Anyway, I think I'll prolly just go to bed at 10:30 though if I hear nothing by then.
Ummm so not much else new. Tomorrow is my last day here really. On Monday evening my dad is picking me up, since he is in town for some business. I probably won't be home until Friday...maybe even Saturday. I don't know. I was going to come back for thursday afternoon but I think I might just want to hang around for the week and relax. Clear my mind. Get my work done in peace. I've been pretty occupied here in TO lately. I'll have nothing to do back in my hometown :p For some reason I am pretty pleased to go home, actually, and just relax and have no where to go and nobody to see (well except my grandparents but that is the first reason I am going home), read all day over a cup of tea. And go running outside in the morning. For some reason it is easier than making myself go running outside here. I don't know why. Maybe it is all the people in the Music Park that deters me and the fact that it is way more peaceful and safer in the park at my house. More boring, unfortuantely, owing to the way it is set out. Ahh well. I need to start running though..oh oh but we have a big soccer field though so I can practice soccer. Goalie work!!
Here is part of the park at the back of our house with the family dog, brett.
Cheers.
It's almost 9:30pm and I shouldn't be at home. I was supposed to be at some fancy jazz club watching my 2nd cousin and his wife perform with my sister and her friends. I won't lie, I forgot about this until late last night! I have *nothing* to wear for this level of dress, at all. I did have a few dresses but they needed a certain type of bra that I didn't have! I had to buy it! So the next day I have tons of errends and groceries to do and we go out to do that and I try and look for either a new outfit or this piece of unders that I need! nothing! It's like they cleared out the WInners in the small section knowing that I was coming! So we rush back home and I'm already so tired. What happens next?? The streetcars weren't running or something on the harbourfront!! We had like an hour wait in union subway at the connecting streetcar thing!! ahgh! The time I get home it is basically 7pm and I am supposed to be there for 7:45pm. I look around my drawers. I don't have anything to wear! I don't have enough time to go to Sears where I knew I could get what I needed. And to top it off, I didn't really want to go anyway. Just wasn't really interested. I could have just visited ...in not-so-nice-clothes...but then I would have had to pay 12.00 just to say hello for an hour. That just doesn't compute in my head.
Anyway..arhg..so I just took the dog for a walk with Rob and came back in and did a quick 15 minute workout and had a shower. I feel chubby in the stomach for some reason?!?! ahrtgh. Anyway...so I'm all flustered. I just hope everyone gets over it. I didn't feel like pulling my hair out more over it and it was just easier for me to not go. I think now I am going to read my school stuff...I applied for a few jobs today...gonna work more on that..I need a job whyyy haven't I gotten 1 interview yet this summer. I might go out tonight, at like 10pm. Maybe. I can dress to hang out...I don't have clothes for a fancy jazz club ahrhg. Oh and I've stopped spending my money. wahoo! I've had my fun for the summer but it's time to return to frugalness...until I score a job, that is. Anyway, I think I'll prolly just go to bed at 10:30 though if I hear nothing by then.
Ummm so not much else new. Tomorrow is my last day here really. On Monday evening my dad is picking me up, since he is in town for some business. I probably won't be home until Friday...maybe even Saturday. I don't know. I was going to come back for thursday afternoon but I think I might just want to hang around for the week and relax. Clear my mind. Get my work done in peace. I've been pretty occupied here in TO lately. I'll have nothing to do back in my hometown :p For some reason I am pretty pleased to go home, actually, and just relax and have no where to go and nobody to see (well except my grandparents but that is the first reason I am going home), read all day over a cup of tea. And go running outside in the morning. For some reason it is easier than making myself go running outside here. I don't know why. Maybe it is all the people in the Music Park that deters me and the fact that it is way more peaceful and safer in the park at my house. More boring, unfortuantely, owing to the way it is set out. Ahh well. I need to start running though..oh oh but we have a big soccer field though so I can practice soccer. Goalie work!!
Here is part of the park at the back of our house with the family dog, brett.
Cheers.
