Thursday, August 19, 2004
I'm avoiding packing my luggage right now...yes it's already 10:30pm and yes my train leaves at 7:50am...I'll get to it in a minute dammit. I'm having a warm cup of tea (rather chilly in here) and a bowl of special k. I hope I didn't have to do any washing. I think I have enough stuff. I'm only staying until the end of the weekend-taking the morning train back to TO on Monday (5:25am train). In a fortunate turn of events, I was able to find someone to take my Saturday shift! Now I have friday to monday free to go home. I miss the play off game for my soccer league though. I feel like an ass...but this is the last time I can go home for this many days for....god probably until christmas haha. My schedule is going to be busy this year. I haven't seen my grandparents in ages and so yeah, want to get back....despite the feeling of dread that I do have right now. But it's not about *being* home, it's about *going* home. I haaaate the transition of getting up early with my bags and going to union station and ugh. Plus I'm getting picked up in London and that is always a pain in the ass...getting off the train in London, finding my dad, getting in the car and doing another 50 minute drive home. But it was that or take the dreaded 6am train back to Sarnia and the last time I tried that, I didn't wake up/get out of bed for it. The 5:25am train from Sarnia causes me more pain, as well. But oh well. Someone drives me to that one so I *have* to get up. So, I figure 7:50am in pretty decent. I can get up at 7am basically.
Anyway, dragged myself out of bed again today at 6:30 and had breakfast--I have to have a leisurely breakfast in the morning. I don't know why so many people skip it or hate it. Anyway, got ready and took the dog for a walk. I decided to wear my kilt outfit today for work despite that it was cool and windy outside. It ended up being sunny and warm later anyway. It's really comfortable to wear-but I never ever wore skirts and etc before so I always feel so self concious throughout the entire day. Not to mention I always feel like people are *staring* at me. arhg. I worked in Stationary today...still no weborders...but my manager wanted me to open on my own today and today was my first day of not shadowing..interesting..I think I might know what is going on...I think they want to keep me on as a permanent position...they said I would be going back to weborders but yet keep putting me on cash until I get better and better...there aren't weborder positions really, during the year, I bet she is making sure I am up to par on cash before I go to weborders so that a)i can work extra during the rush, sort of a double benefit for them and b) so they are going to keep me on for this year since i am now a trained cashier at the store. Really, i should just ask as everyone keeps telling me......hahahah
It was slow-ish today. Everyone kept buying a packet of gum or something. :s Text was more fun.
I came home and slept and took puppy for a walk and we went and got groceries...or..rather..Rob got groceries and I came along to help-got a box of cereal and oatmeal bars so that when I come back I won't starve too much..the bars are for my luggage to take home. We had a chicken dinner at the Loblaws there. It was ok...
Other than that, worked out for 30 mins by practicing highland dancing and read. That's my day. fascinating huh.
You know what? Blogs aren't very liberating. There was stuff I wanted to add to my blog today when I was talking about work...but I can't! Bringing out thoughts like that could very well get me into some trouble. All because people read this! hah.
Sometimes I guess that is why a written journal would be better...I did have one..I am using it now for other purposes and I ripped out the 2 months of entries and put them in a drawer. They were really personal and were interesting to read again since my words were from another time and place, really. I certainly don't feel the things I did back in the winter...those were harder times. When my life felt so uncertain and I felt like I had lost everything. Of course, now I don't, I feel like I have everything. I mean, there are always those other uncertainties in my life, but ...ah nevermind. lol. hehe.
I had better start packing my bags. ughhhhhhhhh.....don't want to travel.
I'll of course, keep everyone updated with the wonderful world of me, in Sarnia...or a small township just outside of..hah.
I'm going to the Highland Games on Saturday there...not to compete (not ready for that!!) but to watch. Gonna visit me grandparents...going to a big party tomorrow night for my cousin's birthday....umm..whats a stag and doe?......anyway, and i'm going to read and write and just relax! oh crap and work on that work for that prof....doh....sitting next to Brett....that fat lump of a dog. I'll bring my camera. :p Have a great weekend everyone. Wish me safe travel. Stupid 4 hour distance..grr..
Anyway, dragged myself out of bed again today at 6:30 and had breakfast--I have to have a leisurely breakfast in the morning. I don't know why so many people skip it or hate it. Anyway, got ready and took the dog for a walk. I decided to wear my kilt outfit today for work despite that it was cool and windy outside. It ended up being sunny and warm later anyway. It's really comfortable to wear-but I never ever wore skirts and etc before so I always feel so self concious throughout the entire day. Not to mention I always feel like people are *staring* at me. arhg. I worked in Stationary today...still no weborders...but my manager wanted me to open on my own today and today was my first day of not shadowing..interesting..I think I might know what is going on...I think they want to keep me on as a permanent position...they said I would be going back to weborders but yet keep putting me on cash until I get better and better...there aren't weborder positions really, during the year, I bet she is making sure I am up to par on cash before I go to weborders so that a)i can work extra during the rush, sort of a double benefit for them and b) so they are going to keep me on for this year since i am now a trained cashier at the store. Really, i should just ask as everyone keeps telling me......hahahah
It was slow-ish today. Everyone kept buying a packet of gum or something. :s Text was more fun.
I came home and slept and took puppy for a walk and we went and got groceries...or..rather..Rob got groceries and I came along to help-got a box of cereal and oatmeal bars so that when I come back I won't starve too much..the bars are for my luggage to take home. We had a chicken dinner at the Loblaws there. It was ok...
Other than that, worked out for 30 mins by practicing highland dancing and read. That's my day. fascinating huh.
You know what? Blogs aren't very liberating. There was stuff I wanted to add to my blog today when I was talking about work...but I can't! Bringing out thoughts like that could very well get me into some trouble. All because people read this! hah.
Sometimes I guess that is why a written journal would be better...I did have one..I am using it now for other purposes and I ripped out the 2 months of entries and put them in a drawer. They were really personal and were interesting to read again since my words were from another time and place, really. I certainly don't feel the things I did back in the winter...those were harder times. When my life felt so uncertain and I felt like I had lost everything. Of course, now I don't, I feel like I have everything. I mean, there are always those other uncertainties in my life, but ...ah nevermind. lol. hehe.
I had better start packing my bags. ughhhhhhhhh.....don't want to travel.
I'll of course, keep everyone updated with the wonderful world of me, in Sarnia...or a small township just outside of..hah.
I'm going to the Highland Games on Saturday there...not to compete (not ready for that!!) but to watch. Gonna visit me grandparents...going to a big party tomorrow night for my cousin's birthday....umm..whats a stag and doe?......anyway, and i'm going to read and write and just relax! oh crap and work on that work for that prof....doh....sitting next to Brett....that fat lump of a dog. I'll bring my camera. :p Have a great weekend everyone. Wish me safe travel. Stupid 4 hour distance..grr..
