Tuesday, November 23, 2004
What to say...what to say...
I've been very busy with my big research paper for Near Eastern Prehistoric archaeology....I finished it the other day and have just been taking a break from it so that when I edit it tonight, I will be coming at it with a fresh perspective. It's about 17 pages long...but by the time I am finished fiddling with it tonight, I'm sure it will be about 20 pages long. Who knew there was much to be said about lithic analysis methodology?
Anyway, it's been hard to keep focus. I've been feeling really blue lately. I'm not even sure why. Maybe it's because I wish I could help my best friend and I know that I can't, besides being there for him. Maybe it is because my schooling isn't going so right. I wish I knew what it was like to have high grades. I guess that sometimes depresses me. I don't know what it is like to do really well in school. And I like it so much, which is what makes it strange. Although, I think I spend more time feeling sad about it that it affects my work. I'm still kind of depressed about how Middle Egyptian turned out...especially when I went to look for those half courses for next term and I was flipping through the old anti-calenders. Nobody seemed to have anything upsetting to say about that particular course, same prof, at all. It was all praise. Even the workload wasn't in the hard section. I was shocked. And then I just felt more depressed.
Because I had at least made it through that exhausting research paper-never mind that it still needs editing, I have another 15 pager to write for another class, and that I have 3 tests coming up, I'm moving home in 2 weeks, and my life is changing before me-I decided that I would reward that small feat. I rewarded it because I struggled through it, and I'm not sure why. Me and Rob went out to eat those new beef stew in the bread bowls at TIm Hortons..hahahaha. Really filling, actually. And we drank our coffee's on a cheery walk to the bookstore a few blocks away at John and Richmond. It was a nice day and the air was comfortably chill. The coffee was warming on the walk and the conversation was pretty good, although I think we rid of our medium coffees before we finished them because we don't usually ever drink coffee and it makes us jittery. We love chapters. It's our favourite place to go. I ended up buying 2 books but then I returned one of them the next day (today) to Indigo (with Rob, again) because I didn't like it after the first chapter LOL. Then I purchased some different books after I returned it.
I felt bad...spending the money and all...but there is no way I can physically pay off all the money I owe any time soon. So what the god damn hell is another 35 dollars on top of all that. Oye.
So I have, Eragon by Christopher Paolini, Brightly Burning by Mercedes Lackey, and The Darkness that Comes Before by R. Scott Bakker.
It's so depressing. I owe U of T so much money...especially now that i have to take a credit and I lost all the money on the other one...
I decided to take Modern Irish History, after hours of trying to find a course to take that I liked, or wasn't full....very difficult.
But at least this course is a full 1.0 credit and offered in 2nd term, so it's pretty intense but ah well.
I was disappointed Lithic Analysis was full. Oh well.
Well...I'm going to read some of my novels and try to lift my spirits...then edit my essay and study. Honestly. I just want this term to be over and to go home already. I want to start anew and fresh next term.
Bah.
On the bright side, I changed my answering machine message and it's hilarious. I laugh everytime it comes on when I don't answer the phone or hearing people's reactions to it. So if you know me, call and wait for the answering machine :p
I've been very busy with my big research paper for Near Eastern Prehistoric archaeology....I finished it the other day and have just been taking a break from it so that when I edit it tonight, I will be coming at it with a fresh perspective. It's about 17 pages long...but by the time I am finished fiddling with it tonight, I'm sure it will be about 20 pages long. Who knew there was much to be said about lithic analysis methodology?
Anyway, it's been hard to keep focus. I've been feeling really blue lately. I'm not even sure why. Maybe it's because I wish I could help my best friend and I know that I can't, besides being there for him. Maybe it is because my schooling isn't going so right. I wish I knew what it was like to have high grades. I guess that sometimes depresses me. I don't know what it is like to do really well in school. And I like it so much, which is what makes it strange. Although, I think I spend more time feeling sad about it that it affects my work. I'm still kind of depressed about how Middle Egyptian turned out...especially when I went to look for those half courses for next term and I was flipping through the old anti-calenders. Nobody seemed to have anything upsetting to say about that particular course, same prof, at all. It was all praise. Even the workload wasn't in the hard section. I was shocked. And then I just felt more depressed.
Because I had at least made it through that exhausting research paper-never mind that it still needs editing, I have another 15 pager to write for another class, and that I have 3 tests coming up, I'm moving home in 2 weeks, and my life is changing before me-I decided that I would reward that small feat. I rewarded it because I struggled through it, and I'm not sure why. Me and Rob went out to eat those new beef stew in the bread bowls at TIm Hortons..hahahaha. Really filling, actually. And we drank our coffee's on a cheery walk to the bookstore a few blocks away at John and Richmond. It was a nice day and the air was comfortably chill. The coffee was warming on the walk and the conversation was pretty good, although I think we rid of our medium coffees before we finished them because we don't usually ever drink coffee and it makes us jittery. We love chapters. It's our favourite place to go. I ended up buying 2 books but then I returned one of them the next day (today) to Indigo (with Rob, again) because I didn't like it after the first chapter LOL. Then I purchased some different books after I returned it.
I felt bad...spending the money and all...but there is no way I can physically pay off all the money I owe any time soon. So what the god damn hell is another 35 dollars on top of all that. Oye.
So I have, Eragon by Christopher Paolini, Brightly Burning by Mercedes Lackey, and The Darkness that Comes Before by R. Scott Bakker.
It's so depressing. I owe U of T so much money...especially now that i have to take a credit and I lost all the money on the other one...
I decided to take Modern Irish History, after hours of trying to find a course to take that I liked, or wasn't full....very difficult.
But at least this course is a full 1.0 credit and offered in 2nd term, so it's pretty intense but ah well.
I was disappointed Lithic Analysis was full. Oh well.
Well...I'm going to read some of my novels and try to lift my spirits...then edit my essay and study. Honestly. I just want this term to be over and to go home already. I want to start anew and fresh next term.
Bah.
On the bright side, I changed my answering machine message and it's hilarious. I laugh everytime it comes on when I don't answer the phone or hearing people's reactions to it. So if you know me, call and wait for the answering machine :p
